Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Monday, July 30, 2012
Anyways, you all should definitely read Rediscovering Catholicism by Matthew Kelly if you haven't already. It really explains our wonderful faith better, and it's really easy to understand. It's also very eye-opening. I am a much better Catholic since reading this book. Even if you're not Catholic, you should still read it, because it tells you ways that you can become closer to God. So, what are you waiting for? Go get it!
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
As most of you probably know, I started going to my local public high school last fall. I was homeschooled before, and this was a big step for me. Being a social butterfly and very outgoing, I enjoyed being around lots of people, which was a nice break from only being around my brothers and parents all day, every day. But things changed, I changed, and I'm not happy about how I changed.
As of a couple of weeks ago, I had no idea how much I had changed, but then, someone I knew before I went to my public high school said that I had changed, for the worse. This confused me, a lot. And it got me thinking. I think the biggest way I've changed is that I'm not as happy as I used to be, and this is for a lot of reasons which I'm going to start explaining.
Part 1: The first (and probably biggest) reason I'm not happy: I've crept further and further away from God. I don't mean that I'm becoming Atheist, or even leaving the Catholic church, it's just when you're exposed to everything in the public school system at once, it gets you thinking. I thought that I could find myself if I stopped being so close to God. Which, sounds stupid, but since my parents are so deeply rooted in the Catholic faith, I thought that doing the opposite of what they do would make me "freer" and my own person. I also thought people would like me if I acted ignorant about the beautiful religion I was so deeply educated in. But it didn't help. I found that I wasn't happy when I was far away from God, and acting like I didn't like being Catholic didn't help with people liking me AT ALL. In fact, I think they could see right through my acting and knew I was just being fake, which probably turned them off even more. This past weekend, a close family friend was celebrating his first mass after his ordination as a priest, and the look of extreme happiness on his face made me realize how genuinely happy he was, and it was all because he was so close to God. And being far from God didn't help me feel free, even if I wasn't doing what my parents were doing for once, it just made me feel.....LOST. I felt so alone, so sad, and it was all because I thought it was time for this big girl (who's not even 16 yet...ha) to be independent. Now that I know it's so different, I'm a lot happier, and I feel relieved. I don't care if I know more stuff about religion than the average public-schooler does, that's the way I want it! (Not hating against those of you who are public schooled, just to clarify)
Part 2: The desperate search for friends and the epic failures that always came along with it. It's true, I don't have friends. Well, that's not entirely true, I have two friends, one guy friend, one girl friend. But I don't even know how I have that many. As I mentioned before, I think I acted a little fake around the people I knew. I acted like I didn't like being Catholic, I acted like a ditz, I acted like I wasn't talented, and I actually tried the "bad-girl" thing. Yep, none of them worked. I thought I could get friends if I tried to fit in, but I'm pretty sure they could see through my acting. And, on top of having like no friends, I also wasn't happy with myself. I knew that that wasn't the best I could be, and I knew that wasn't the true me...which was just wrong.
Part 3: Hoping for my Prince Charming....as a freshman. I'm sure every girl has dreams of their Prince Charming. Handsome, Talented, and everything else a girl could want, and willing to give his special girl all the love he had. But you see, I wanted that love now. I guess it came along with feeling alone because of the lack of closeness with God, and the fact I had no friends, but I just wanted to feel loved and respected, and I thought I'd find it in a guy in my small town. I still haven't had a boyfriend, but I still dream about going to movies with the right guy, my first kiss that I still haven't had, and walks holding hands while watching a beautiful sunset. But as I searched for that love, I realized I was missing out on the people who loved me the most: my family. Even though my brothers can be a pain, I know they love me and I love them. So thank you to my wonderful family for always being there and making me feel loved.
These are just some of the big things that have contributed to my unhappiness, but I think I've finally found out what that one person meant. I think he could tell that I wasn't happy with myself, and THAT is how I've changed. So here I am, leaving my thoughts and feelings open to the whole world, but I figure maybe I can inspire some one, some way. Maybe it's being more active in your faith, maybe it's letting your true person shine, and maybe it's realizing that your family loves you no matter what. But I hope you have taken at least ONE thing out of this, and that's to be the best person you can be, because when you are, I think that's when you're truly happy.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
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Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Then we went to the meet the next day! It was so much fun! I got all best times and on the very 1st event of the day which i was swimming, they sang the National Anthem and then Maddie and I were like "Oh we should go see if our event is posted yet!" so we start walking over to behind the blocks to wait for our event and we heard our names called cause our heat was about to swim and we were about to miss it!! So we sprinted over to our lanes( I literally ran out of my clothes!) I had my timer cap me and i made it to my event! But it was SO CLOSE! After I finished my swim I got out of the pool and picked up my shirt shorts towel and flip flops which were in a trail from where i was when i heard my name called to my lane....
Then the other day, my swim team had a pizza party because there were a couple people moving up into the group im in (one of them is my boyfriend so i was like so happy that we'd be in the same group again!!!) and there were a bunch of swim caps and sharpies so we all wrote all of our inside jokes on them. some of them were soo funny! omg we were all dying laughing the entire night. Anna tried to make Sarah think that she liked Brendan...omg it was hilarious!!!! Sarah totally believed Anna!! and Brendan was just kinda freaked out haha but he played along :) And the best part, there was a waiter who looked like Liam Hemsworth!!!!
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Because of this crazy Midwestern weather, I've got Spring on the mind, and shopping too, so here are some of my top picks from Forever21 for Spring:
1: I think these chandelier earrings would look totally adorable with a blouse and and your hair up in a ponytail
2: This mustard colored skirt is the perfect color for Spring, and you can wear it right now with tights and some super cute flats.
3: I just couldn't pass up this heart-printed skirt. It is so perfect for Valentine's Day, and the pastels make it appropriate for Spring.
4: These stackable rings are so cute, and for only $2.80 for the four of them, they're so irresistible.
5: Every girl definitely needs an LBD, and this one is so perfect because it's a shirtdress, which means that it's more wearable to school.
6: The teal color of this dress is so presh, and the back has a bow in it. I'm speechless.
7: This seersucker jacket is very versatile, and it's got tiny pink and white stripes in it, which is pretty much perfect in my fashion book
8: This headband helps you channel your inner Mickie Mouse, and it comes in three totally adorable colors: white, red, and blue.
9: Last but not least, is this beautiful dress. The coral color is presh for Spring, and the black side panels make you look super slim, so it's win-win.
Hope you ladies enjoyed!
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
So, along with the crazy weather, my life is also super crazy. I know that I've already told you guys about 4 times how sorry I was that I haven't been posting a lot, and how I'll try to post more, but I somehow never get around to posting, and I've been thinking about that. I know that it's probably really boring to follow a blog that only posts once every 2 weeks, so this time, I am going to start posting more. Now, I can't promise a lot, but probably once on the weekend because my life is super crazy. I have something going on every.single.night of the week. I have so many things going on that its too many to list. But, if you just hang in there, I'll get my ducks in a row and start posting more. Sorry, I'll try to be a better blogger!